start over again

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I'm in some sort of madness where I can't seem to stop writing books. It's like the last push of madness before I die, which I have decided to call a trilogy. The performances we made are so ephemeral. It feels to me like they never even happened. Some of the books are now out of print and those also now feel like they barely exist. It's actually only the book I'm writing at this moment that feels alive to me. But, also, it's like my writing practice restarted in 2014. Starting with the book I published in 2014, all my books are still in print. I've been a writer for thirty-eight years, but in my current trajectory I've only been a writer for eleven years. It's like I found a way to start over. And I am searching for a way to now start over again. (And, of course, all this writing must also have something to do with wanting to have something to do other than doomscrolling the current state of the world.)



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